When everyone pounded pressure on me

See,after getting so much drenching from junta,how can one feel being comfortable in his way,so is what happened on me.It were the days when I used to be given respect with remuneration of what I used to do,But now what has happened to it.It seems that it has curled up to a pea,which when just bred is used the most ,but when it has become old,it loses the value and strenght.So this is what is directly linked to me.You must have heard about CATCH-22 situation,everytime I get to pulled down to demeanour,so if ask you you to pls forgive me,no one is there to help me.